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Merry Christmas and Happy Hannukah to all you celebraters today. Hope everyone’s day has been good. I had a lovely dinner with my family last night and we opened presents afterwards. It was a bit of chaos with my niece and nephew, but it was really awesome to watch them get excited. They definitely made out like bandits this year. My nephew, who is two by the way, was so excited that he started opening other people’s presents, lol. Classic.

Today has been really quiet at my house since we normally celebrate on the 24th. I went to bed early last night to read The Tale of Despereaux, which I got for Christmas from my sister. It’s a really cute tale and I can totally see why it won the Newberry Medal. I realize I should probably not be reading a children’s book, but I can’t seem to grow up. I do have other adult novels I’m reading. Memoirs of a Geisha is one, which I really do love. I couldn’t put it down up until Christmas swept me up. I’m almost done that, though, so I can give it back to Gord when he returns I’m also reading Johnathan Strange and Mr. Norrell which is just huge and really hard to hold so that was sort of put on hold, heh.

I’m off for two more days from work so I have plenty of more time to read. I’m quite excited about that. On that note, I think I’m going to go off and do just that: read. Goodnight everyone. Merry Christmas and all that jazz!

On Friday I gave my manager my letter of resignation. I was frightened to do it because I didn’t want to be yelled at but as soon as I did I knew all of my fears were for nought (hah, a little olde English for ye on this fine Sunday!). She was really nice and did the fake sympathetic discussion with me, you know the one, where she uses her soft voice and makes it seem like we’re just the best of friends and she’ll miss me so very much. Pfft. I know she’s probably happy to be rid of me. So that is that. The next time I’m in Toronto I’ll be looking for a job. My plan is to print off a bunch of resumes and go from shop to shop handing them out. It’ll be gruelling and probably not fun at all but hopefully I’ll end up with a few interviews by the end of it. I know they’ve probably all stocked up for the Christmas holidays already (they all seem to hire extra temp workers around this time) but it doesn’t hurt to start looking now. As soon as I have a job in Toronto I can start looking for an apartment in Toronto.

So other than that, I guess life is grand. I’m done exams, I’ve got the rest of December to finish working and spend the rest of the holidays with my lovely family. Gord’s leaving for Winnipeg on the 23rd so I’ve got a limited time with him as well. I won’t get to see him for Christmas or New Year’s which really sucks but there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t go to Winnipeg with him, flights are all booked up the wazoo and I’ve got my family to think about as well.

I’m at a crossroads and it’s putting some strain on my relationship with my mother.

I was supposed to spend the next semester at McMaster instead of Ryerson to accomodate this job at the CIBC. Well, I learned yesterday that that’s not going to happen. The courses I picked were non-transferable. I had already taken enough of those kind of courses to not need anymore. Wait, no. I need one more history course and that’s it, I’m done with all of my liberal studies courses. Whats left are all those marketing courses I’ve been putting off taking because I loathe marketing with such a fiery passion. I was so optimistic in my first year about marketing. Now I can’t stand the bloody subject!

Well, my fate at CIBC rested upon those transfer credits. Now that I cannot take those courses at Mac I need to start looking at my other options. I could continue doing this part-time thing, if I really wanted to, but it’s not something I’m keen on doing. I want to go to school and have a part-time job, yes, but not have a job and go to part-time school. After three years at Ryerson, the idea of leaving it now has really been a hard one to take, also. I love everything about Ryerson: it’s shoddy (for the most part) architecture, the wonderful instructors, those wonderful ladies I’ve come to know and love … none of that is something I want to give up.

So, I’ve decided that I’m going to quit CIBC after a month of working there. It will be two months by the time I quit at the end of December. No sense in jumping the gun completely. I’m off school for the Christmas holidays, so I may as well work fulltime and have money for presents.

My mother, on the other hand, seems to think that I’m capable of going to school and working at CIBC at the same time. Next semester I’m going to bite the bullet and take five courses again, a full courseload. I don’t want to take an extra two years to finish school unless there is some real added advantage to it (like majoring in History, which if Ryerson plans on shaping ACS into that, I will be doing!). I’m going to be taking all of those professionally-related courses that I deferred for as long as possible next semester cause I can’t (nay, I won’t) put them off for any longer. I need to stop hiding behind history as much as I don’t want to!

Boo. So, my mom and I have been a little testy with each other lately. I’ll take the blame for most of it cause I do have very little patience when it comes to her and school. After she walks away, muttering curses under her breathe, I end up feeling like shit. Last night, she actually stopped speaking to me for a bit :S That was really upseting. She never stops speaking with me!

The other problem is that I want to move to Toronto. I can’t do that unless I take out a line of credit to pay for rent (at least for the first few months). She thinks this is a bad idea, which in the grand scheme of things is probably true because it’s another debt that I’m adding to the hump on my back, but I feel its something that needs to be done. I’m entering my last year of school and I haven’t been on my own once. Travelling doesn’t count, either! Most people say it’s a bad mistake, moving out, but I think it’s a mistake that I need to learn on my own turf. I can’t have someone hold my hand the entire way into adulthood. It’d be nice, but I’m beginning to feel a little crowded in this womb. It’s time I went out on my own.

So I’m a little stressed out. I’ve got a letter of resignation I need to write, a resume I need to re-write, a personal line of credit I need to apply for AND … I have exams coming next week :S At least now that I’m down to three courses, it’s only three exams. But still, one of those exams belongs to Dr. Kislenko, and I always come out a little woozy from one of his exams.

So if I don’t update again for a long-ass time … it’s probably because I’ve imploded from stress, or because I’m in the process of moving, or something along those lines. Something .. not fun :S