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I’d like to offer a retraction from my previous entry. I did not throw a mayou packet at Melissa, I threw a mayo packet. Two seperate people called me out on it. Now I’m not fond of making typographical errors cause I’m kinda anal about them … er, most of the time. MSN doesn’t count, people! Anyway, still .. it was an honest mistake.

The simpler thing to do would have been to fix the mistake and not mention it in this post. Haha, but I’m not one to do that.

Anyway! Last week was … well, horrendous towards the end, but it’s picked up since! Friday I had that essay due in Arne’s class. Suffice it to say, it was long, boring and almost 600 words short of the 3,000 required. Ah well, it’s not like he’s going to count each word. I think I was succinct enough in my 2,400+ words. It was on the Polish partisan movement during the second World War, if anyone’s wondering. I - stupidly, of course - thought it would be easier to do an essay on a country I’m somewhat familiar with. Well, most of the books written about the Underground State were written in Polish. I read Polish at a .. hmm, grade six level? It was difficult, but I managed to decipher enough. I really need to learn to not “challenge” myself with these things. I mean, that’s what a thesis is for, right? Let’s stick to the easier things when it’s just run of the mill essays, mkay?

So, after torturing myself for twenty-four hours straight writing that bitch, I’ve spent the weekend in a relatively happy state. I’ve met someone He might or might not be reading this right now .. if he is, I’m not happy You said you wouldn’t! Hehe, I’m only kidding He’s cute and Holy God, incredibly smart! and I have a big ol’ full-blown crush on him :blush:

On Friday I also had myself a bit of an adventure. I was supposed to go to Toronto and spend the night dancing it up with Mags, but that unfortunately fell through My friend Jake’s band was playing in London so Rachel, Suzie, Turco, Becky and I decided to finally go see a show. They were awesome! Good, old-fashioned rock music. The lead singer reminded Rachel and I of David Gray. We got home around 1am and bummed around until 3-ish at which point we decided to go for a drive. We went as far as Niagara Falls, I think, but I can’t be too sure cause I fell asleep on the way there. I woke up at around noon after coming home at 6am. I don’t even think I changed out of my pj’s yesterday

It was nice. I like it when I don’t have to worry about going out. Bah. I need to get ready for work now

It’s Remembrance Day in Canada. Did you buy a poppy? I did. Not that I’m boasting or anything. I’m just saying

I’ve been in a big Fiona Apple kick. I had never heard any of her music other than ‘Criminal’ but I’m a huge fan now. I downloaded ‘When the Pawn …’ awhile ago and fell in love and finally aquired ‘Tidal’ which I’m just consuming now. It’s good! She’s so pretty and talented. I thought she was a crackpot when I first saw her, which was when she accepted an award from .. MTV, I think, and made a spectacle of herself. She was raped. That’s harsh and I can’t relate at all but it’s insightful to hear her music. It’s also pretty.

Speaking of raping …

Well, not really. I’m just a wee upset. It’s pathetic really. I’ve sworn of men for a little while, which is kinda not hard for me cause my relationship card for this whole fucking year has been ZERO, but it seems that as soon as I swore myself to a little bit o’celebacy the fucking lovebirds come out to spawn in front of me. Today alone, before 2pm I have seen three couples make-out explicitly. In public. On or near a bus. I don’t know what’s the occasion. Maybe that’s how people like to remember those who died for the country but I just think that’s a little bit callous.

Yes, I’m jealous, if anyone’s asking. Wouldn’t you be? Fuck that, man. Sit together, hold hands, fine. Just save the kissy-kissy stuff for when I’m not around. Jesus.

I nearly killed myself getting off the bus today. It was still moving and I was putting on my backpack and I started falling backward. My arm stretched out in front of me helped to stabilize my balance though. I did manage to spill some of my coffee on a seat, though. That was hot. Reaaaaal smooth, baby.

Ya, I’m in a sarcastic mood. I’m just .. jaded and alone and pathetic and I wish I wasn’t. In retrospect, Fiona Apple’s kinda appropriate for my mood right now. Thank God I’ve got her to voice it for me. Thank God indeed.

There is a moth on my wall; his name is Eddy. He’s been around the house for a good portion of about a year now. Its probably not the same moth but it may as well be, they all look alike.

Depression sets in when you’ve got no love in your life and your primary job is serving customers on a Saturday night. Customers that come in through the drive thru holding movies from Blockbuster, wearing sweatpants and usually in the company of their “significant other”. It makes me wonder what I’m doing wrong. I’ve realized my main problem is that I’m not doing anything. If I’m not at home, I’m at work or with my girlfriends. I have no male friends to speak of. I wouldn’t dream of going out with anyone at McDonalds, though that may be because no one has ever expressed interest towards me there.

It’s just another depressing Saturday night.

On the plus side, Leah had a great date with a boy she really likes